omo. heard that my second passed away yesterday due to a stroke and no one was at home so they only found out when a neighbour came over to invite him to play mahjong. so scary la. and ah ma is overseas somemore. she and sa yi are rushing to get back. the wake is on wed.

i feel so traumatised and guilty. life is so short, we dont even know our own coming and going. thank God that He is my saviour and in Him i have eternal life because of what he did on the cross. but the rest of the maternal family do not know him as their saviour yet and even ji gu also didnt know. even tho they may have attended my mum's wake which had a pastor sharing, i dont think any of them accepted him then. and i feel as though the responsibility lies on my shoulders, to do my job as a child of God which is to share the gospel with them. this coming wed is porbably the best opportunity i can find and im really praying for God to use me and that i wont disappoint him. i dont want to see them go to hell one by one without hearing the gospel being shared.

on side note, went for edmund's baptism yesterday with the cg. and went to eat jalan kayu prata. the guys ate super alot la. and it was fun talking nonsense with all of them. like 3 girls and 14 guys?! haha. cos only me sarah and chrystal went. but we all had a good laugh im sure (: the bill amounted to 117 bucks. goodness. i bet it was all the nasi and murtabak. hahah.

oh yeah went swimming too in the morning with dad. i think i've got terrible techniques. haha. then went for a haircut before yf. yup.