okay. im sick ): but nvm, God will help me (:

had another bout of weird dreams last night. and i woke up crying. it's a first for me so i found it a little odd. scratched at night again too. aye.

THIS IS THE START! like wow. like finally. hahah

Do you see what i see? (: look really carefully, there are dolphins in there


Let now our hearts burn with a flame
A fire consuming all for your Son's holy name
And with the heavens we declare
You are our king

We love you Lord, we worship you
You are our God, you alone are good
You asked your Son to carry this
The heavy cross our weight of sin

I love you Lord, I worship you
Hope which was lost, now stands renewed
I give my life to honor this
The love of Christ, the savior king

oh dear i think im falling sick, like right before exams start! zz. feel like sleeping more when i get up and i keep having weird dreams again. i just had one just now. it was SO ODD.

hmmm, glad i got to share more of my faith with di on thurs night, and we talked about deep things. i almost cried talking about her. felt weird. oh well. God will continue to work in her and break down barriers she has set up in her heart (:

studied in sch till late for the past 2 evenings. slept at 12 last night and up at 730 today. zz tired ): think tonight im gonna be KO.

thanks gloria and jocelyn and huikee for being my inofficial study partners for the past few days (:

I need You Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else can I go
There's no other name by
Which I am saved
Capture me with Love


www.cello.org

i want it (: <3

zz. didnt sleep well last night even tho the weather was oh so yummy

had problems sleeping so only had 6 hours max, had 2 dreams which were nonsensical. didnt feel too strong when i had to get up this morning. bleah. i was really feeling horrible and aching.

and then i went to school, looking forward to spending time with God during morning worship, looking to seek His deliverance from this emotional bondage, to put on His armour that shields me from the devil's crap. and it was good (: cos i know You love me so and You are worthy of more than i could ever give to anyone, more than him, more than my friends.

even though last night didnt go down too well, i'm glad i can find love in God alone (:

but it still makes me wonder why i keep hurting you, keep hurting myself. the feeling is just so painful but i can't express it. God, come and fill that gap.

was so distracted and seh today cos of the lack of rest.

rainy morning, tired. zz

i know someone who has a crush on you. his heart skips a beat everytime you turn to say hi. he derives immense pleasure and joy when you choose to spend time with him. you just make his heart melt with only a glance. he is overwhelmed with happiness when you choose him to be your best friend.

who is he?

he's Jesus, he's God (: He loves you oh so much, won't you just accept Him?

Angel

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

do you feel lonely deep down inside?
thoughts that have never been said or heard by anyone but yourself

i feel that right now. and i dont like it. the more i think, the worse i feel. and i think i'll be the only reason for myself to become more introverted and less able to open up.

coolios!

http://www.news.com.au/perthnow/story/0,21598,22492511-5005375,00.html

check this out (: do you see it turn right or left?

above: track farewell

below: family dinner last night (aiya its a bit dark but oh well) (:

crab partayyy!

ohmygoodness, i cant believe how much crab i just had for dinner. it was soooo gooood! (: yay! haha cos my siblings didnt have dinner home so there was only 3 of us with like how many crabs. im the main crab eater so i ate super alot. hahah.

i'm thankful for it (: cos i didnt have lunch after ailin's wedding and went straight down to lhk for worship. was quite sad that i had to sacrifice taking photos with her and roy, and mingling in the crowd but hey, honouring God has better rewards! hahah. like chilli crab (: but that's besides the point. honouring God in what we do does reap a reward that is greater than what we can get in this world.

cg time was quite good today, i finally saw wynn (: haha. and yeah the sharing was open. we had nice choc cake for the 2 birthday boys. good fellowship.

farewell assembly (:

photos with my classmates (: all except jianming. haha. cos he didnt come today. sad. oh well. btw the teacher up there is not my ct, she's our gp tutor, mrs wee (:

went to madewithlove and spotlight today. i really need to stop buying so many craft things! zz. but they are pretty (: and it makes me happy to make people happy hahah. okay i think im a bit high.

yay i love making stuff, too bad now i dont have that much time on my hands. anw these are the things i made over the past month. the top 2 are cards for my friends and the bottom 3 is a sneak preview of mrs lim's retirement gift from our class (:

oh these things make me happy, the process of thinking what to do, buying the stuff and putting it all together so i can see the beautiful final product (: thanks God for brightening up my day yesterday.

but away from these happy material things are issues of friendships, superficiality and what not. aye. im hurt, sad, disappointed even. didnt expect it to come out so badly. God wont you just heal our hearts. and help us to see things from your perspective, what you want.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.Your playing small does not serve the world.

There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine, as children do.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

-Marianne Williamson

ponned school to study at home today. now have a different studying area from sec 4. i used to study up in the attic but now its in the study room. and in when you sit at the table, you see a poster with some positive thoughts thing. check out some of the bubbles on it:

the last one is the ultimate man. hahah. mummy bought this for russell's pri sch exams last time i think. haha