ooh blogger changed the dashboard layout. haha.

havent blogged in a while for a few reasons. 1 is that my house comp is down (so i only use like my bro's lappy (rare) or at office (1-2 times a week)). 2 is that im busy. haha. like work life busy :X but SB has been fun no doubt.

oh i got rejected by monash so i'll be going to unsw (dread). it's gonna be six years! my goodness. i'll be so old by the time i come back :S how depressing.

emo-ing at the moment, at the thought of not being able to see glory for a really really long time :( I'LL MISS YOU PACEY! :S i think i'm gonna cry when we send her off.. like buckets and buckets! maybe i'll sink into depression... then need to shift house to the place near buangkok. ahaha

man is a really selfish creature. don't believe me? think about your actions through a day. you'll see what i mean. i admire those who have been deemed selfless in their actions.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

wah, thank God i'm only doing bulletin for august (or less) and not longer. i think i might peng san if that happened :S this week got so many announcements! spent almost the whole day working on it... pacey and i were squashed and cosy at amy's desk (cos i needed to use freehand and pacey was editing some stuff also). we were saying that it was the ideal cos then we wouldnt even need to think about removing the partition if we were to move to the front before (which we didn't in the end ahah)

got a treat at olivevine from SP also (no we did not purposely go there to eat just cos THEY were lunching there; we didnt even know!) oh, and to my surprise, i found out ian kwan (aka new intern aka adele's bf) is my neighbour! like just down the road. and i've never seen him before (i think) in the past 15 years! i think i might have seen his sister, cos she's from sn but that's about it. haha

JONATHAN DAVID MANN is very the cute! (: haha. pacey and i had lunch with him, heather and dave yesterday at hak kee coffee shop (i tell you that place has the best jap food for a measly coffee shop, you should go try it. you wont regret!) yes, so we had great company talking about things under the sun and towards the end more about different cultures and stuff. it was nice (:

went to meet daddy at j8 after that to go look see (i'm looking out for a watch (: )and get some admin stuff done for my class. went down to commonwealth after. my head was swimming. felt so horrid. and all the way till class started somemore :S but it was good that it went away.

class was fun (: met more new friends, besides raden. learnt bout starbucks history and culture. strong coffee gives me headaches :S maybe that's why i dont drink coffee. haha. and also cos it's very bitter.

i can't believe i woke up at 8 when i slept at 2! stupid body clock...zz

Rapture!

at tampopo (look at the mouth watering food!)

ooh i just watched 'night at the museum' which i borrowed from chrystal last friday (: it's a cute movie. i like the easter island head. haha. "Me no dumb-dumb, you dumb-dumb, you bring me gum-gum?"

feels good to not have to go anywhere. like last friday, it was weird. i felt kinda lost suddenly not having to go to work. ahha. but now i think im more accustomised to the feeling. shiok (:

im excited. got trng later today (: yay. learn new things, fun!

sense of accomplishment! me cheryl chrystal and glory cycled all the way to changi beach and back (which makes that 3 hours of non stop cycling, and at least 20 km covered)! and there was a nice reward at the end of the journey - the empty beach with vast open water, planes zooming overhead, sticking our tired feet into the soft wet sand and letting the waves wash over.. mmmmm contented :) felt alot like at apo's house (batu burok beach). i like (:

me and pacey wasted 10 bucks tho cos we came earlier to blade but the fake threatening weather made us return our blades early and the next thing we knew, the sun was out again. sianxzxz. haha. oh well, but the good thing was that we met chris at macs and we crashed his retreat and just talked about stuff army guys go through, things we never knew cos they always tank it (like a man).

HELLO TO STARBUCKS @ UNITED SQUARE! :D

i start my trng on wed. yay, excited!

mm last week after cello i felt the same kind of disappointment in myself as i have felt before

09/11/2006
is it hard to play an instrument?

technicalities and emotions

practice harder, open your heart wider

infuse yourself, drown out the voices

two become one

it is hard.

and one more post which i can't find but the content is as such:

how does it feel like to have eyes but not see, ears but not hear, emotions but not express?

and yesterday or sat, i happened to think about the whole thing and just felt the need to be released in God's presence, and when i learn to express myself in other ways, to be more confident in letting people see this other side of me, then will i be able to play music that is from the heart, which people can also feel.

ack! almost lost track of time! gotta go, meeting my BRAIN for blading and chrys and cheryl joining us for cycling later. whee! i miss not seeing brain everyday ): withdrawal symptoms. update more another time!

ooh RAPTURE WAS REALLY GOOD! worth every $ of the show, i was impressed and enjoyed it much (:

had lunch with ps lionel and ps eunice on wed. they brought us to chinese swimming club to eat (: and on the way back pacey spotted this old man cycling on the road who looked like he was 9 months pregnant! you can imagine her reaction and excitement as she pointed out the window. haha.

yesterday sharon and amy came down! and we had lunch together with shukun. it felt like a really happy day cos it was OUR LAST DAY and ya, just felt different, you know? we sang this song for shaunie to record:

(to the tune of barney)
shaunie is a pow-nasour from our church bartley's office
he helps sp and plans all things and gets the office ready
shaunie can be your friend too if you just buy him iced tea

haha. it was so embarrassing cos the whole office was watching us sing! thankfully it was past 6pm so not too bad cos some people left alr. haha. auntie selena and auntie elsie brought us out for dinner at amk hub. (: we talked until 9.30! pacey had so many embarrassing stories to tell! we laughed till our bellies ached. haha. shan't reveal them here, go ask her yourself. haha. by then i was quite zz alr. ahha. but somehow i still managed to watch antm. ko-ed till 9 this morning. really good cos it was deep, uninterrupted sleep. shiok.

sleepover at chrystal's tonight! meanwhile, i have no idea what to do. i wanna go shopping but no one to go with. maybe should just stay home and save money. haha. but i still need to go draw money leh. maybe i'll go hub then come home. fast fast.