yes i have a hammy now (: it's called bam. i felt and still feel like a meanie cos it's only been 2 weeks plus and i took it away from it's siblings ): but thankfully it's settling in better today. it's amusing how it can sit in it's food container. cute (:

anw, so sad, duck was CLOSED! maybe tuesdays are their off days ): oh well. so pacey and i ended up eating jap food. and the drink stall uncle saw us coming and he shouted damn loudly 'milo peng teh peng!' LOL. me and pacey were bent over laughing cos it was so embarrassing yet familiar. haha. and it made me wonder if those had become our nicknames from him or he was calling out for our drinks to be made. but nonetheless. and pacey and her tentama don. even the auntie knew her order can. haha. nice (: PACEY you need to eat more!

then we went cheryl's house. jaya was there too studying for exam with cheryl while pacey and i were playing with the young hammies (patpat and xiaomings) and chabori. the baby patpat is like mummy patpat! keep biting people ): urgh. and jaya's bro wants it cos it bites. how ironic. hahah

the process of taking out the stitches was quick and painful :S but now i feel free! haha. my mouth can open bigbig. can yawn/sneeze/eat properly again. haha. but there's a hole now. next tooth out next fri.

haydn is killing me. ack.

hello world.

kat and uncle vic came to stay for one night. weird timing to do anything :S but we'll meet again in kt.

i took gelen's shift yesterday. midshift. i was quite tired before that cos i didnt sleep much the night before. but then somehow was quite chirpy so that was good. and all i can say is that im damn injury prone, one day i might just kill myself accidentally. haha. yesterday, i got 3 injuries. one cut on my hand from the magnetic part of the door of a cupboard which wouldnt stop bleeding, one scratch on my knee from a pen when i was cutting the milk box scotchtape and one painful balaku from walking into a chair. good job bobo.

i found out that sam plays the cello too! and she's staging a concert in dec with some other people. how cool is that (: i miss ensemble playing. i saw 2 SA rugger seniors at store too. i forgot their names. and shaunie and kaye. ya. yasser keeps making these weird drinks when he does closing. he made me try this drink he did with the green tea powder and milk and foam. it tasted like seaweed. and he was sad that i only took a sip. then he drank it and spat it out. lol. then he apologised and said he'll make me another drink next time. haha. i have weird partners. but they make working fun (:

MEETING PACEY FOR DUCK AT AMY'S HOUSE! (((((((((:
then we are going to chill at bishan and go cheryl's house to get a hammy home (: i wonder what it will be called. yay. happy (: haha. and then going to take out my stitches at night. still feels funny. like itchy. but then who scratches their teeth. haha.

i need to start working on christmas cards. and and and... i suddenly feel like got alot of things to prepare for aust. scary :S

oh the world of wisdom tooth extraction... tis a very inconvenient one.

so far i've only eaten tau huay, some kiddy kueh (kueh balu?), bread dipped in milk, porridge. bleah. some are nice i guess and still better than being reduced to soups only (that's if i had done 2 at one shot). was quite tired during work yesterday. but thank God it was a short shift so not too bad. sneezing hurts, laughing too hard hurts :S i wonder if i can ever open my mouth properly again. hahah.

been seeing many familiar faces these few days at work. like kailing, my pri sch friend who got the nickname of 'mai4 cai4 sao3' from my chi teacher. haha. and sarah wong, and loi from sn. yeah. some sn junior (linna's friend) and some SA rugger whom i dunno personally. ya.

haydn is a challenging but fun piece. i didnt get that eww feeling like when i first read kol nidrei. ahha. but kol nidrei was good training ground and i've come to appreciate it despite it's disgustingness of technicality.

i shall enjoy the rest of the week, considering that i have no more shifts for this week thus making it more empty to bum and chill (:

ooh just got out 1 of my wisdom tooth. felt/feels weird... the appt was only set on friday so i didnt have much time to process the fact that i was gonna get it out. haha. another tooth in 2 weeks time. i hope i dont drool on my pillow tonight (cos one side of my mouth is numb. hahah)

spring cleaning was alright i guess. but joann and myself were kinda pooped out by like 4 plus alr. so we took the early buses home to rest. the lack of rest killed my nose during yf. i was like some sick girl :S made my nose peel.

pacey is coming back! less than one week to go (: im very excited. haha.

oh now i rmb what i wanted to blog about in this post. my injury proneness. haha. during spring cleaning i got this gash on my toe. and i didnt notice it till i washed my feet, which by then prob got infected with titan and dirt from the floor.



then yesterday we had cg retreat at gail's house and i was walking home from there and stepped into a misleading pothole. got this cut on my ankle.


cg retreat was good btw, esp the praying part. cos i felt it was sincere and really reflected what was on their hearts (: thank God for the whole thing

i want to eat soon :S hope the bleeding stops asap

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i just ate tau huay. it felt alright. but i realised how swollen my jaw is :S then now im taking my medication but this feels really weird. cos one side of my mouth is numb. i cant feel the water or the bottle touching my lips so i very scared the water spills out. haha. then when i swallow i very scared i choke cos a bit of my throat is numb also from the numbing spray (which i accidentally swallowed a bit of just now) haha.

i love tootsie (: she's the cutest smartest dog ever. even tho she doesnt know how to paw and stuff. and she always takes advantages of situations. tsk. but i still love her (: spring cleaning tmr...

i forgot what i wanted to blog about.

my 2 day break from work passed really fast. maybe cos i slept half of my tuesday away and spent most of today out of the house. hmm. haha.

anw, i had a shot at playing for prayer today. it was quite fun in a way. i felt that i could worship more than when i play cello (and feel more stressed) haha. and i guess i felt more protected cos there were better players to cover and lead. yeah. i still want to learn more on the guitar leh, not just be effective. must learn how to explore it myself...

just some nonsense that filled my thoughts today on the bus home just now:

i've always wondered how i would turn out if i never became a christian. like will i still be who i am now? in terms of character that is, and the way i act, carry myself, etc. i believe that even tho i'll be somewhat who i am, God still shapes and moulds me to be who He wants me to be, like even better than how i would've turned out being a nonchristian i suppose. and the fact that i believe in Him makes me a testimony to the non christians around, esp now in my store. there are little comments that my partners make that make me glad to know that i'm different from others, glory to God for that of course (: and it's difficult to directly communicate the gospel and God's truth to them, but still in my actions, God can speak and open their eyes to see beyond what is outside to what is inside. hooray (:

i was just thinking of some other stuff, when this came to mind. about how humans are selfish (that i alr know). in line with what was preached on saturday at tm, coming to God daily in surrender really helps put in perspective what we are living for. and sometimes we dont realise our stubbornness or inability to let go of the things around us: the decisions we make, what we want, what we think we need, our thoughts, our human/carnal desires, etc etc. these things become a hindrance to allowing Jesus' lordship in our lives. no wonder in romans paul says " i do not understand what i do. for what i want to do i do not do, but what i hate i do. and if i do what i do not want to do, i agree that the law is good. as it is, it is no longer i myself who do it but it is sin living in me." and in mark jesus says "if anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me." deep stuff...

there was one more thing. im quite sure. but my goldfish memory isnt doing any good at the moment..

oh i rmb now. haha. okay but i cant type it out properly. it's very messy thoughts. ah i dunno how to put it down. nvm.

one more thing. i was very touched by ziyan who msged me during the week to check how im doing (: she'll prob never read this anytime soon, but i thank God for her, and also for how she's slowly learning to seek God and hopefully find Him in her times with him and everyday life.

oooh. crab crab crab on friday (: and daddy's coming home (: my dad's cousin's daughter has been staying with us for a few days cos she's working here for a week. she came on saturday. and i only saw her last night. haha. cos i wake up after she leaves and i come back after she sleeps.

the joints on my right hand are really zz. first it was the wrist. both the left side and right side of my hand. then now its the joints at my thumb and at my middle finger. it's damn stiff and disgusting. every morning i wake up it feels sore. when i try to stretch my fingers it hurts like crap (excluding the fact that i havent been playing piano and thus the flexibility is gone). and when i play cello it becomes very tight and uncomfortable :S i am so going to get arthritis when i grow old. yay to painful joints.

i should stop being too much of a people pleaser. it's not good :S detrimental to my mental capacity. haha

off to bed. hello long weekend!

whee i did my first closing shift yesterday. yasser was still not feeling well so he asked me if i could take his place and i agreed. so i ended up doing closing with gelen and suharti. some beeep-beep-beep guy came in and cut the long story short, walked out with our tip box. im angry with him and at myself too for being so zz. argh.

then there was this prc couple who were sitting at the sofa seats outside our backroom and they kept making out. like get a room please. it was quite a 'thanks-i-didnt-need-to-see-that' situation. we kept walking in and out also to do our stuff but they obviously didnt care. disgusting. anw, closing was quite alright. we ended earlier than the previous night somehow. yeah. been having headaches for the past 2 days :S sian. and weird sleeping hours.

i finally got a new piece to read for cello. been a bit bored with what i have lately. haha. not cos i can play it well or whatsoever but it becomes more familiar i guess.

friday i had work from 8-4. store sales seem to be good these days. alot of customers, or you can tell by the amount of trash. i had to go 2 rounds for trash run. haha. then had some guitar lesson with shaun before tf. keep getting back late and waking up darn early :S thank God im not working on mon tues and wed. can rest more before the crazy 4 days. i came to a realisation that my weekends are not for rest. how ironic. oh well.

yesterday i was supposed to work from 3-10. i ended at 1130. store was damn busy at night la. scary. yasser was on break and gelen was about to go break. then suddenly the whole group of church goers come and settle outside, sending reps to order 23 frap drinks! so we had to call both of them back to help out. then the group so zz. 'can you double blend so that it wont be so watery?' -.- and one person paid for ALL their drinks! like 160bucks! damn rich sia. behind them a long queue was forming. so imagine at the bar got like 10 drinks in line, and the mad frap area (gelen even created a whipped cream station). and apparently this church group comes every sunday. but i've been working on sunday and this is the first time i've seen them order so many. suharti says it was always like that. then we were talking about how like everyone is trying to save money cos of the bad economy but they come spend so much and dont even finish their drinks.

yup so crazy queues = crazy bussing. then i had to do wet prep. and buss somemore. so i ended at 1130. disgusting. ahha. my void was super high also. sian. then we had sandwich party while they were closing with brother. got a lift back from suharti and rishi. slept at 230 (!!)

oh, God healed my headache (: i got it like slightly after suharti came in. and it wouldnt go away. i tried drinking hot milk (didnt dare to touch caffeine in case it got worse) and taking panadol after dinner but still :S before the crowd came, i prayed that He would take it away cos it was annoying. and after a while, it disappeared (: yay. could work better too.

2 more weeks to pacey's return! (: yay

thank God for peace after fri night (:

finally went for cg on sat at ziyan's humongomous pretty house. haha. sunday was family day in church. played captain's ball. it was a sooper dooper hot day :S got burnt in a gross t shirt tan and am peeling at my nose now. had yami yoghurt with shaun after that. felt good (: heh

it's a good thing i decided not to play for pnp. i was so pooped after that. and my whole body clock is gone once again. did bar on monday (: yay! haha. took a while to adjust to the christmas drinks. keep forgetting the java chips in dark cherry mocha frap. had to reblend a few drinks :S went for mien prayer with rachel and got back like near 12, slept only ard 1. woke up at 7 this morning. sian. and im still awake now. hooray. the SB christmas CD is getting to my head but very nice to sing along to when working. haha. and the christmas tumblers!!! they are so cute. but the ones i like are always so tiny. can't hold much :S the mugs are pretty nice too.

i tried christmas blend yesterday with joann. it's strong :S to me at least. i dont really like it. but it's very earthy. very very. must be the aged coffees in it. the smell is a bit woody, spicy. quite a nice aroma.

pacey, you finally got my package! (: haha. i think the 'friends' thingy is super cute. totally describes us. haha. and the bible tabs? i went for dental on the day that i bought the food and i passed by that christian bookshop so decided to check and surprise! they had it in stock. like quite a lot somemore. hahah.

thank God for creation (: i've been marvelling at orion's belt on fri, sat, mon and today. many many stars have appeared in the night sky the past few days or so. it's just amazing how God can know where every star is, tell the difference between each one (when all look so alike), and even have names for them. my God is cool (:

PSALM 139
O LORD, you have searched me and you know me.

You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.

You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD.

You hem me in—behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?

If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,

even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.

If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,"

even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!

Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you.

If only you would slay the wicked, O God! Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

They speak of you with evil intent; your adversaries misuse your name.

Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD, and abhor those who rise up against you?

I have nothing but hatred for them; I count them my enemies.

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.

See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

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thanks for creating tears Lord